Seed

You know, life in human form is really an interesting experience. I sometimes sit and think, how do people live fifty plus years battling a mind, a heart, life, the outside world and more for that long? Times can get REALLY HARD and sometimes unbearable, especially when we’re chemically built to have emotions. But try this perspective, life is also such a sweet beautiful experience, despite the pain.

I’m learning, because of the little beautiful things/moments in life: being in the moment, seeing the color, feeling the wind, smelling a scent, feeling a nice touch, makes it all worth it. Moments make you feel like you can take another breath, another step forward.

A friend of mine passed this year, and I literally felt like I was in a dark bubble. The things I enjoyed, no longer excited me. What kept me at peace, could barely grasp me, and I was faced with a new fight. I had to learn how to be present again. One thing about me is I have will. I’m always looking for a way to improve, to prevail against the darkness, and with that courage, an idea came to me. Create life Jessica so you can FEEL life. So, I planted a seed, literally. It was a sunflower, the happy flower. Growing that seed, nurturing it, watering it daily, being excited to see its new height and watching me take care of it brung me back. I reciprocated that energy I gave that plant, on myself, and I honestly feel more alive than I’ve ever felt thus far on this journey.

My point is, don’t give up. Find your peace, nurture you. Love you. There’s really a calm in your storm. Find it and embrace it. Feel it and hold it. Everything is and will be okay always. Pain may hurt and make it seem like things are unbearable, and no, things may never be the same but embrace the change. See what you’ve gained. Choose a fighting spirit. I love you. Peace and love always 💙